Okay, in the midst of trying to grasp what my lecturer is saying, just wanted to take a couple of minutes to write about semester 2, year 2.
Great would be too vague a word to describe this 4 months. God has been constantly holding my hand, no doubt. Even when I drifted away from his strength, relying on my own hands to fend for myself. I know we always tell ourselves, with God behind us, who can be against us? But we also forget in the most trying periods, that the only one who can sustain us is that one that we constantly forget to lean on. How ironic right? So I want to take this time, to also thank God, my good Lord, for everything this semester.
You heard my cry. Everything that I said I don’t want to ever feel again, you really didn’t allow it one bit. Even the simplest of things- I hated the dim lights at fenner hall. It was dim dark and eerie even during the day and I told God, I really cannot take it. I managed to get super super bright lights for this semester for the rooms. In fact, my window faces the morning sun ( I know some of you would hate that, but during winter, it’s really a blessing). I also told God, I never want to have that lonely feeling again. You know, those periods you wake up from naps realising that there is no one around and you just wanna cry. You have given me friends and I don’t feel that loneliness anymore.
It has been a trying period, essays, exams, presentations (6 to be exact). It has been tiring. But God has sustained me and even saw me through. I have no reason to doubt that he will continue seeing me through my last three papers. Haha. I don’t know how I’m going to handle those in three consecutive days, but I’m just gonna trust him, with of course, doing my part too. I realised how not in control I am now. I remember being able to even predict my grades in poly because literally everything was that predictable. Now, studying that whole book and memorising everything in the lecture notes is not going to help. Anything can come out. But okay, you get the drift.
So, Lord, I trust you. I remember you saying that if anything wants wisdom, ask and it shall be given unto him, but he must not doubt. I ask for wisdom now, that you will give it to me graciously.
Thankyou. 
